I feel like everyone's against me..?

Okay,first I lost a friend due to this really bad betrayal I wait all the time for her talk to me and when I make the first move to talk to her,she acts like shes annoyed with me I try asking her why and she doesn't tell me and just continues to skip the subject,so we haven't talked for over a week now.And this other person who I have this Ex-girlfriend who's now my friend,we got into a fight recently about something really stupid I got really mad and called her a ***** and now im really regretting and eating my words now and wish I had never said those things now because shes saying **** about me to my other friends about how pathetic and lame of a a ***** I am because this whole mess I'm avoiding her...I'm avoiding her because shes being really scary right now and im tired of fighting with her because shes been in this really bad mood..and most the things about her I said only out of anger and now I feel increasingly hurt because I'm sad and want to apologize to both of them and try to understand things,but I feel like its really worthless now...I just didnt know what to do because I feel like I lost everything because of all this short period of time how things happen...Is this a really ****** away to go?